So, it was raining and gloomy and the weather channel said there's gonna be frequent showers with thunderstorms..and I was there in my room just the day before my move out with suitcases stripped open with clothing, utensils, electronics, books scattered throughout every corner of the room-and there I was--- thinking how can I NOT go to the city?I may not come back in a hell lot of months..I may come back but may not have the chance to roam about as freely as I do now!I may end up being there with a bunch of people who can totally blow out the chances of feeling the city in the same way I used to. And then there was the weather-all grey and looking like a puffy eyed kid who had cried for the last whole hour. The rain was not bad especially since it helped cool off the weather and made the morning sleep more peaceful but nonetheless I was feeling miserable. There was soo much to pack and I felt almost guilty of not doing my most urgent tasks. But when I was almost giving up the idea and forcing myself back to organizing the suitcases, the phone rang!Sam's mssg-"it doesn't matter what the weather is you are not leaving without seeing me. We can do a hell lot of stuff indoors if you like. But lets go to the city" ..that's all I needed.It didn't take me more than a 10 seconds to grab the towel and run for the shower. Half hr later I was prim and ready to take bus 33. The wind was howling as if it's mad about my decision but it felt like I was going out on a date with someone who my family doesn't really approve of which, by the way actually added to the thrill!
So, then we were back to the city-fooling around as always..Central park looked sooo gorgeous like it never did before..or maybe it looked better cos I was pining to see it soo much. Had a glimpse of the Hudson from the roof of the Natural History museum. It truly looked different with the storm clouds hanging over the luminous landscape. Sam was buying trinkets from the museum store and I was just gazing outside the large glass windows. It was hard for me to explain to her why I was being soo different today. Got back to Times square later at night..Saw Eat Pray Love. Shouldn't have seen it. Should've stayed outside in the open taking pics and feeling the city lights..but it would be too much to ask for from a friend who's not into the city and with a crazy scary weather with constant lightnings. Later while walking towards port authority I couldn't help but notice each and every theater, Applebees, BBQ rest,Regal, AMC's, 'I love NEW YORK' stores with wondrous eyes of a first time tourist and I was like what on earth is wrong with me? I used to hate 42nd street beyond anything.. After night classes in the film academy I used to dread going back this street cos of the impossible traffic on Saturday Sunday nights. The only thing I used to notice in this street is a possible gap between two people through which I can squeeze through to get an inch closer to port authority! and now I hardly want to walk back towards Port Authority!
After reaching the bus terminal and seeing Sam get into her bus I figured that both my IPOD and phone's battery went down. So, God officially made me a handicap and forced me to stop distracting myself as I usually do and ponder over things that I should have thought a while back.
Thoughts of mum and dad, who has always sacrificed more than they are capable of for me and bro filled up my mind. It was hard for me to be alone for a little while without ipods, smart phones or any of the accessories of the 21st century..their thoughts are too painful to bear and it kept on drilling my head that how on earth can they stay away for years without seeing us just because we took some decisions on our life which we are overtly proud of!Are we that selfish or is it how it's supposed to be?We are just doing our jobs which are already destined by some one wayy smarter than us? I felt lonely all of a sudden..scared like a first time high school graduate..wanted to be beside someone, maybe wanted to be anywhere but at Port Authority that time. the clock seemed to have stopped ticking..why is it in the same position that I saw 10 minutes back?tried to recheck the time with my phone..but well the phone's battery is down!great!fumbled for the ipod to see if its really not working..got startled when the guy next to me asked me 'are you ok?'..as i always am over proud of being a brilliant actress, i looked at him with the most flashy smile ever-"yeah why"..he was a little hesitant..no..well..ur eyes..
man!when will I ever learn to start wearing the waterproof liners..went to the bathroom..a nice racoon in the mirror..God knows why I was upset..
dn't want to mention how the bus zipped its way away from the highway and the NY skyline faded with dazzling lights and the smoky clouds..As much as I was trying hard to push the thoughts of the glorious days in the city and the distant future when I'll have the chance of coming back again , I slowly noticed that the tears have finally stopped..
well...The GOLDEN STATE awaits me.:)
